i feel a bit sad - calculator - hydroponically

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i feel a bit sad
i feel a bit inspired
i feel a little silly
i feel a little stupid

i feel like hitting things
i feel like not doing anything
i feel weird
i feel normal

i feel things
i feel thoughts
i feel cold
i feel warm

like pillows
and maybe some blankets
stuffed into a fridge
the fridge is turned off

i feel a bit sad
i feel a bit inspired
i feel a little like a pillow
i feel a little like a fridge



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my brain is filled with words

math is stupid
math is silly
math is useless
unless you’re a mathematician

if i wanted to be a mathematician
i would be reborn as a calculator
i would grow up as a fake boy
but very good with numbers

i’m not good with numbers
well not good enough
i’m not a calculator
i’m not even a machine



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i would like to live underground
all i need is my own nuclear reactor
and find someone to bring me uranium
sometimes
i guess i’ll need nutrients
for the plants i grew hydroponically